How God Broke My Idols and Became Enough: A Journey From Craving Comfort to Surrendered Faith
Can God really be enough to satisfy my heart’s cravings?
This is a question I pondered for years—afraid to say out loud what my actions were already revealing: I didn’t know if I could truly exchange my idols for Him. My idols gave me temporary comfort, and although I had to keep going back to them for more, at least they were predictable. I struggled with this addiction for years and believed I’d never be able to let it go—until one day, I did.
In 2020, my world came crashing down. My husband and I were on the brink of divorce, and with that one reality, all my hopes and dreams were suddenly at risk. If I moved forward with the divorce, everything I had worked for would crumble, yet I didn’t want to stay. Marriage wasn’t the fairytale I expected—it was hard, painful, and my heart leapt at the opportunity to leave. While I was preparing an exit strategy, God was planning a heart transformation.
The first thing He did was remove my idols’ ability to satisfy me. He allowed my mind to grow cloudy, taking away the comfort I once found in my intellectualism. He allowed division between my husband and me, stripping away the comfort of relying on a person to feel valuable and loved.
Suddenly, I was empty with nowhere to turn—which was exactly where the Holy Spirit needed me. During this time, my faith grew in supernatural ways. God had my full attention, and the faith I started with was being tested, making room for deep, genuine trust to grow.
Here are three principles I learned in that season:
Nothing can truly carry the weight of our neediness except God. Everything and everyone I turned to for worth and value was too fragile to sustain me. Only God is strong enough to bear the full weight of our neediness—everything else will crumble under it.
Unhealed places in your soul will keep you settling for less. My father wounds and fear of abandonment caused me to create idols around me. I wanted to control how others treated me, so I performed to earn their affirmation. God gently showed me He wanted to go back to my childhood and heal the little girl in me so I would no longer believe lies about my identity.
God is more than enough. In my brokenness, God proved Himself to be the Lover of my soul. His kindness met me in my daily needs. His faithfulness showed up through the people He sent to walk with me. His Word comforted me with reminders of His love. I learned—through every stripped-away idol—that He truly is enough.
My prayer for you is that you will explore the depths of God’s love for you! That you would know how far and wide His affections are for you.